Some Skunk Funk

Hallose again!

I went for a walk today, and I realized that I haven't been outside for almost a month. like... really outside, where I'm breathing lots of fresh air - more that the amount you can inhale from the back door at work to the dumpster and back. I went out with Erik to the crescent, and walked for a long ways, and enjoyed the city lights. I love this weather. I like it nipping at my cheeks, but inside I'm totally warm. It's such a nice feeling. I like Erik, he's an awesome guy. He's great to talk to. All in all, it was a very good night once I got outside. Short work day today, and it was fun to see the stamps win the cup. I was surprised to be honest. 

I'm going to start doing stuff with my life again. I feel like I've become this complacent little fart who never does anything but work, eat, and sleep, with the occasional movie work thrown in there. I'm going to start going out to concerts and stuff like that again. I think that I'm going to start really getting to know myself as well. I sorta miss the days where I could please myself when I went out. I didn't need company or anything. I could just go for a walk, or go for coffee... Given, it's really nice to do all that with somebody else as well, but I think it's time for me to find out who I really want to be. All that I know is that I desperately don't want to have anything to do with my old high school self... I want to be confident, quiet, and subtle. I want to live a life of observation, followed by action, rather than the other way around. Efficiency would be a good way to describe it. 

As Maurice once said to me: Efficiency is lazy intelligence. Its' so true too. I like it. I liked Maurice, and I miss working with him. Sucks that he went to North Sea. Oh well. 

Work was so quiet today. It was kinda nice, 'cause I could get things done in an organized way, at my own pace. I felt good when the day was done. It'll be nice though.... tomorrow: 9 hour shift, followed by time spent with Steve. Steve rocks. It'll be nice to see him again, it's been a long while. 

But, for now, I must retire, for I do have to be at work early tomorrow. 

Ciaowsa for nowsa

-John

Kim

Sa nom c'est Kim.

Again, it has been a long time since I have posted here, but I intend to start doing it more often, due to the fact that I can write here, and almost nobody will read it, as opposed to facebook, where everybody will read it. 

I went to the Hop In Brew again tonight, and was again skunked. For those who are clueless... There's this girl that works there whom I am really hoping to get to know. I'm going to go again on tuesday, 'cause I'm pretty sure that she works on tuesday. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm nuts. Perhaps I'm just a boy who has found someone who is interesting enough to drive half way across the city for to have a chance at seeing. 

In other news, I have been doing some film work recently, and I'm having an absolute blast doing it. Nothing beats working on set. The energy, the intensity, the creativity - unparalleled. The first shot of my most recent shoot was the most fun I've ever had. I had somewhere between a 12 to 16 foot stick, and I was in a kitchen, booming through a small window into the living room, whipping it from one end of the room to the other. Not a single shadow. I was so happy. Still struggling to memorize dialogue well though. It usually takes me a take or two to get all the cues right. I think I just need to focus a bit more on my own job, and less on the jobs that need more people... I am the only guy doing sound after all. These little shoots are really fun though. You meet some awesome people, and have a blast. Working every position (while it can be a bit taxing) is also quite enjoyable, and I like gaining experience in all domains. 

This upcoming shoot in december sounds like it's going to be really fun. It sounds pretty fricken serious though, so I'll be working HARD. Proffessional crew (like, a bunch of guys from Heartland and stuff), and pro actors (the one guy played in Pashcendale [sp]). All I can say is I hope that it works. I hope that I do what is expected of me. I guess I'm just a bit nervous - something I suspect will go away the more experience I gain. 

It's going to be really nice to go to school in January too... SAIT has awesome courses, and I think that in the long term (while it doesn't seem overly beneficial at the moment) it will really pay off. I mean, it will really open up doors for me in more domains than film. I'll have a chance to experiment in the studio, and in post, and preproduction and all that stuff. It'll be really interesting. 

AAAAANNNNNDDD - I got my union permit, so I can now call my self a IATSE 212 Permitee. 

And again, that doesn't mean anything until I'm done school and can get a trainee position somewhere. 

I dunno why, but my headspace is SUPER weird at the moment. I feel upset at something. I feel like I've let somebody down or something...........

Think, think, think....

I think that it's just a combination of nerves for this upcoming project, and this whole Kim thing. Not that there is a Kim thing. I just really hope that I can see her again. Talk to her a bit maybe. 

Man. Work today was LONG. 9 hrs selling fish. Usually those shifts really don't feel like they're that long, but today for some reason, it just dragged on and on. Oh well.  The dollas 'll start rolling purdy quick here. Life is good. 

I only have two more SAIT courses to sign up for, and then it's all going straight into savings. 

God. I need to go to bed.

-John