Georgia On My Mind

Have you ever felt alone? Have you ever felt like there's nobody around? Well, that's me in a nut shell. Life took a MASSIVE twist two days ago, and now, suddenly, I feel simply helpless. I'm getting overly emotional about the stupidest things, I'm distracted, I can't focus on anything, I just want to sit and exist... not practice, not work, not do anything! GEEZE!!!! Man, I dunno what to do. For those sitting in perpetual perplextion as to what I'm talking about, I'm going to go to MRC next year. The decision was made two days ago, with about zero warning. I just don't know if it's the right thing to do or not. I never wanted to go to MRC... I never wanted to just "settle" for a college. But, I'm sure that it's the right thing to do.... I hope.

Facebook's not helping much either. I sent a message the other day, and I haven't heard back from them at all... and it's like... did they even get the message? Did I say something wrong? It really sucks, and I can't take my mind off of it. 

I have a new favorite song... as the title of this post may incite. So pretty. The wednesday band played it, and Shayne, the lead tenor player played it sooooooo beautifully. I think a tear almost rolled down my cheek.

Have you ever just wanted to make a huge list of your accomplishments and then show the world.... that's another thing that I've been trying to deal with. I keep feeling like I'm living some kinda lie, always trying to hide the things I've done, the places I've gotten to, the level that I've reached at all sorts of different things. 

But, enough of all that. I feel better having written it all down. I now need to go talk to my family about finances, over a nice cup of java, and return to the practice room.

Until the next gig,

John