In a Sentimental Mood

Good evening all (or morning - for those who consider 0130 to be a morning hour),

I simply, simply must say that I have not been this supremely happy in an excessively long time! I've also not been quite this close to crying for happiness in - about - well, over a year. If you remember that bit that I wrote about Ali earlier this week, well - she got back to me!! I have her number and we're going to try to get together soon. But, not only was she like "Ya, it'd be sweet to get together" or something short and concise, but rather she wrote this awesome paragraph about it, and at the end she said the nicest thing. Something that only my mother, and Mr. Waters had ever said to me before - and it only means so much when your mom says it!

I just about started crying. I don't know. I have a real soft spot for people telling me that I'm worth something to the world, and that I need not be afraid of judgement, and all that stuff. But, I won't go into too much detail, because it's sort of personal. 

But, I've got her number!! I've never been able to say that before! And, she's got mine too. I'm probably going to call / text her at some point, and see when she's free. Jeeeze - I feel like a little kid again!

It's like watching my uncle - he just left his wife (my aunt, oddly enough) of like - 30 years - for her sister. And I know that that sounds horrible, and everything, but I sort of see the other side of it. I've never seen my uncle so happy, and so free, and so childish, but in a good way! I don't know, but I feel that meeting new people is the absolute best thing that I can do for myself at the moment. Not that I don't like my friends, or whatever, but I think that a breath of fresh air would be SO awesome.

Boy, I was just flicking through some of the blog entries that I wrote when I first started this - MAN - I was such a looser. I was so upset and angry at everything. I guess you don't notice shifts like that when they are so gradual, and happening to yourself. Like - it's easy for me to say "Boy, so and so has really grown up these last few months", but I would never notice something like that in myself. It was kind of neat to go back and look at it.... I forgot how much I got sick back then!! I have been in perfect health since the middle of summer! Ya, I was a bit worn down on christmas eve, but that doesn't count. I think that there is an absolute connection between my health now and my current methods of thinking, versus my health back, even a year ago, when I was so angry and unstable!! I like my new life. 

In other news, I think that I'm going to stay at home for a while. Until June probably at least. I've pretty much decided that if I get a series, I am going to move out, get a place, and all that (like - actually buy a place, and start paying off a mortgage). I've decided to go to school in Maine for a few weeks in June. I think that it will be hugely valuable. I've dropped SAIT because the classes were simply useless. I was really gaining nothing out of them, and the one teacher just drove me absolutely NUTS!! 

This school in Maine has a SUPER good reputation. I'm going to take their camera assistant course, and their camera operator course. I've also heard that almost every proffesional steady-cam operator took the steady-cam class there. Perhaps one day, if I can make it in camera, I will take that class as well. I think that it will be really fun to get away from the world there that I know a bit too well. I think that it will be nice to travel, and to meet some new people. And, it's only three weeks, so I'll be back before I know it!

Well, I do need to go to bed. While to only start tomorrow at noon, I do need to go pick up an external drive for this computer so that I can start editing my movie!!!!

I must say though. She rocks!

And to all a good night.

John